The Disobedience of Mankind

the disobedience of mankind is amazing. They know exactly what they do and yet choose to leap to the occasion  and forever doom themselves to the disabling pieces of their self. I sense this addiction among many species but I notice it is far worse within mankind's existence.

Now, for those of you not on the same page as my few diligent followers, the difference between mankind and humankind is the human stain that is the "correct" and "preferred" genome. (<---yes she's being snide!) Mankind takes into consideration the other species that resemble and are kin to humans but not entirely enough, so they have their own clique! I am one of them as is Lobo. Today she exhibited the penultimate in disobedience. I got to give her credit though. When she fucks up she fucks up big time and goes above and beyond and stands out as an honor student of hard knocks just as easily as she does for her general academic studies!

Laurel is pushing back. She is in the tough spot between adulthood and childhood where your body looks adult enough but your mind is that of a child still, and the only time you seem to reflect an adult behavior is when you're expressing the more seedier side and negative emotions that come with being one jaded motherfucker....and for her...she had the best teacher of them all on jaded motherfuckers! She seems to think, like other children her age, that we as adults make rules and boundaries not to protect them but to make their life miserable. And when they see their bodies becoming as ours they think they can decide, like we do, what's good for them and us. Only now we have teens and preteens getting pregnant, doing drugs, stealing, murdering and so on.

Sure there have been instances of these issues in the past but not to the degree we have today. If a girl was knocked up before completing school (don't worry "her" virginity is still intact!) she was forced to attend night-school and such and was outcast to a minimal degree sending a clear message to our other young ladies that it IS unacceptable. Now we have day cares in school and these young sexually active mothers are bragging all about how wonderful it is and how awesome it is when they get attention and we have a fucking epidemic on our hands! I was lucky enough to not give a damn what society thought and teach my daughter with graphic tools about venereal disease and sex and give her ALL the facts. She has seen photos of genitalia and seen photos of diseases on genitalia and I have read to her very descriptively the standard operating procedures for ridding a patient of said diseases and funk. She knows about sex too and knows that when she is mentally ready that she has enough confidence to express her needs, whatever they be, and not slide into archaic ideals and lie there and take it!

Drugs is another story. I cannot tell her of a personal bad experience of my own. All I can tell her is of the experiences of others who failed miserably to keep themselves safe and on track. I was a little smarter than most and knew what to avoid and what not to, but it was/is my job to let her know the dangers and the truths and not just what I want her to hear. I never did them when I was a child and she won't either, and had I been college bound like I was supposed to be with supportive parents who helped me get financial aide and grants instead of kicking the crap out of each other and whichever random child crossed paths with them while I was watching their children, I might have put off experimenting with drugs until my education was completed BECAUSE I was smart enough to know I couldn't do both. Just like I was smart enough to know I couldn't start a family and raise a kid while under the influence. And I didn't...I quit when I got married, just like that.

I didn't need AA or NA to quit. I didn't go to rehab and say "No, NO, NOOOOO" and I certainly didn't abuse the ones I love (no matter how bad the family fucking deserved it, I swear I didn't) to steal their things and buy my "fixes" if you will. I was given most of my shit because I was responsible and generous and funny and, well, like you guys...people just liked having me around and the boys really liked the effects to my sexuality when combined with alcohol and drugs. Basically, I'm a whore and evidently, a really GOOD one at that! Lobo will probably do drugs and drink and I know she will have sex, but I hope she will wait. I hope she will make BETTER choices than I did. I hope she will use her head and not LOSE her head in the heat of the emotion and the surge of hormones like she has been as of late...~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves.

ps. I deliberately left out her issue at hand because Little Miss Mini mobe is grounded for a very long time and she brought that wrathe upon her own head. She knows what she did wrong and her fates know too and it was bound to happen. The sucky part in it is that she isn't the only punished by her actions and she is figuring that out as we speak. Her friends and Boyfriend and what not are suffering right along with her for her actions. If it doesn't make her socially aware of her OWN IMPACT on others and their happiness and needs then she was born without a conscience and will have to travel a far different road than most of you....mobe