suffering and tossing in my sleep as I hear your wailing from the far far away places you have sent yourself to be imprisoned. I cannot take this either, my brother, and knowing you will be giving up the good fight for our existence kills something inside of my chest and angers me, compelling me to slaughter the hearts and hides of those who have brought your mind to your knees.
I knew when we met that we were meant to be side by side among our peoples. I knew you as you knew me and our eyes glowed the same black pools in the dark with the flicks of fire in the murky centers. You tested my fortitude and I passed. Chuckling, I remember the content and the trite banter and the sense of belonging to one another, not as mates but blood of blood and bone of bone. Don't you realize that the learned men and women even know so little as to what power can be held? Will you give up so easily with your broken body and your broken limbs? Why won't you lean on me, your lost sister now returned to you and let me ease your burden as was intended? My love for you breaks any lust I have, and this world without you dims even now with just the thought of the greatest loss in kinship and bond.
I want of no man or woman when you are in need of me and my strength. You carried a heavy burden alone because I took so long in my "desert" wandering, looking for answers...but I came! And now your pride will deny me the allowance of aiding you and comforting you. When you go I go too, in pieces, for some must travel with you to keep you safe on your journey. With so much to do here who will teach the children of what you-we are? Who will lead the pack when my student is still in academics looking out the window of our aerie hill? Why not come to take tea and listen to instruments melodically mend the holes you have that were poked by you and me and humanity, in all its filth, so that you will not carry that burden with you on your way?
I miss you already and know that you're gone in heart from here and would eat your heart and head had I the chance to contain you within me. It would honor me to accompany you but my time here has but one more decade, my brother, allowing time for the one student I have to accrue all she will need bequeathed to her. I will be reunited again with you. I will be by your side and will be born again when you return and we will find one another and test the wills of our children's adult selves before us. Until then, know I love you deeply and angrily and saddeningly it seems. I loved you always and continue even when the ashes have blown in the winds of the northern skies...~mobe's love to her all and her all to her love.
...to you S...knowing you are mine of yours and I am yours of mine eased my mind to want to stay. I am angry you go but will again give yield, you as royal of blood as I and allow you to take absence of this stay but beg of you to cry to me and come to me when you get across and let me know you shed that burden before you take that journey...all my love is poured into the sand of our peoples and at the feet of your shadow for you to bring with you...K
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