Singular Consequences

if one is the loneliest number that you ever knew, and two can be as bad as one but the loneliest number is the number one, then why does everyone strive to be on top, alone? Oh wait...that speech was for another planet where people get along well together and actually show ambition despite of inclination.

Anyhoo, it has to be a terrifying existence up there...all alone! I climb and climb and watch a few similar minded people do the same. We're not searching for recognition or money or fame. We are searching for a way out of the primordial ooze that has become the existence of man.

Children scream and holler for their needs and wants and someone is usually there to give it to them. Even more than they probably should get. And as adults we would all scream and hope some paternal or maternal god-like apparition would fall from the sky and grant us our every wish like a parent or faeri godmother. Wake up from your nappy time and mow the fucking lawn!

Eventually the universe will spin inexplicably out of control and fall flat on its ass giggling while all the other galaxies look on in terror realizing how close they came to such an enormous ass and could have been squashed....oh....wait....that's me I'm talking about! Fear me.

I woke up this morning feeling like life was slipping me by and that I had slept far too long and was in a state of panic when I looked at my cell phone's clock on the face and it was displayed that I was only asleep for about four and a half hours tops. It makes me wonder what was so freeking scary that compelled me to wake up too soon with this feeling of "sleep regret" in my heart?

A collective mind is a terrible thing to allow happen. Dissent is the key to propel a civilization forward whether through revolution or evolution. The needs arise out of contempt for the mundane and status quo. There is no reason that could compel me to jump off a bridge because the rest of the world thought it would be a fantastic idea.

Lemmings are rare due to the conformity of their civilization. I can give you so many arguments for why a lonesome life is a truthful and compelling one. Monarchies survived the ages with a "one" thought conceptualization. Sure they want everyone else to think as they wish but they rose alone to that thought before the rest of the herd. Concluding that neither can exist without the other really. Not enough of those that would take the punch in the face for their ideals huh?

I guess it is safe to say I will remain the end of my days as I had begun the first of them, unhappy and too damn intelligent for the likes of man. I may be unwise but at least I will persevere and work through it along the way. Wisdom is not dictated by what someone else needs and mucks through but by experiences unique to each individual there is.

I don't mind really as there is a certain amount of peace that comes with the unrest as a way of balance. It amazes me how many people don't understand fully that balance means the good AND the bad and not just one or the other...I take what I get and I give what I can and that is all I have to offer. ~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves.