Ignorant or Not?

today is the fundamental culmination of all of yesterday's hopes and fears and all of tomorrow's future. I am spending time to gather together thoughts and ideals so that I may leave something behind, some sort of manual for Lobo to use as a guide so she doesn't feel so lost in this world. It becomes increasingly difficult to do this as it would seem that there are only so many topics one can write about when they haven't been the great traveler Hemingway was or other more famous authors. I want her to see things clearly through my eyes as it has fallen to me to be her sole teacher on morals and the like. Her father isn't completely absent, but his choices ensure that he is mostly absent but never so much that he wouldn't take credit for her upbringing. Fortunately for me, I have not listened to my peers and kept secrets from her, and I afforded her with a knowledge of men that will suit her far better and in a more timely manner than it had myself. She will benefit from my mistakes and will grow in her own but can never say she was ignorant or clueless.

I guess there is no real harm in being ignorant. For the bulk of society most people are. It's just that I feel that if someone chooses to be ignorant rather than being born to the state of thought, it is in a way sinful. Not in the Christian sense or religious sense, but to absolutely choose to be ignorant, absolving one's self from blame or nomination to a task or deed, is an abstinent form of protest, or worse, a chosen inability to help a fellow man. Children and husbands and wife "choose" to not hear what they want when another family member beckons them or wants to inquire about the day. Communities crumble over this forced ignorance and had Einstein and Galileo and Socrates all decided to be ignorant we wouldn't have the values or technologies we have today. So why do people choose this stupefied state? Maybe they feel it will exonerate them from actually "doing" something or participating. I find these individuals are quick to take credit or partial credit for things they had no hand in but plenty of mouth. It's a shame really as so many are trying real hard for their star-gazing efforts to become a worldwide label while others are working so hard to just have enough food for their kids or medicine to stay alive to work to pay the bills. I know, I know, here she goes again. It just befuddles my mind that people really could give a care less so long as they have a bed to sleep in. I remember when Laurel's father and I were so poor we shared a single, twin size bed. I am a big woman and that was no hard feet and we got along better than than when we had money and a queen size bed...go figure. More food for thought-chew on it.~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves.