Good Help-These Days?

it's so hard to find good help these days! I remember when my little "me" was so eager to put her toys away and help with the cooking and doing all manner of household things. Only now at fifteen she wants to sit and moan and whine all the time. As far as men are concerned, they work and come home and their day is done. My day would be working longer hours because the job was farther away and coming home and doing the household stuff for three people with minimal help. I worked a sixteen hour day and they an eight. I worked seven days a week for a 112 hour work week and they a forty!

Now don't get me wrong. If I said I didn't want to cook they'd get all excited at the prospect of going out to eat. No one seems to want to take care of themselves anymore and only the real small will offer assistance. I cooked again today preparing extra again for the rest of the week because finances are tight and I don't have the cash to spare to go out. My little niece wanted so much to help and I got to renew my faith and laughter in that little two year old as she knelt on the chair at the dining room tabled to help me stir things and make meatloaf and prepare the stuff going into it. I miss the togetherness of people sitting around a table or wherever working on the same task together like that. Seeing her cousin so eager even instilled some jealous abandon into Lobo so she after a little prodding wanted to be there with her momma and do some food preparation. When it was all done she refused to try it as she always did until "auntie" reminded her she "made it" and then she wanted it and I fed her some from my plate to which delighted her to no end! It was good to be a part of that happiness once again and I didn't wear out my physical self but found myself fast asleep on the couch until after midnight and long after the rest had gone to bed. I know the sleep was brought on by mental exhaustion from remembering the good times and the laughter and enjoyment for the new ones. I woke up and headed here to my room and my PC and my social network and you, my readers. But there are other things that occupy my mind tonight, rather this morning. Like the help of a friend to another and whether they need it or not.

I helped and helped and helped till I am blue and frustrated beyond belief. I could write a book on all the things I have had to say to cheer someone up or to re-evaluate a person's worth to change the course of their thoughts from the negative life-altering decisions they were headed to make. I want to be of service and believe truly that is what I am here for and wonder if my shortened lifespan means I will have an early retirement too? I'm not complaining and really don't know how to stop but in the case of former spouses and mates, they really need to get a clue as to what they are navigating. I should not be obligated to "fix" the bad relationships they abandoned ours for or to remind them of how special they are when they felt themselves better than me and left and checked out long before my heart had! Dark waters make for great places to hide a soul or a body. I was your everything and your world when we were together. You couldn't, chose not to, breath or move without checking in with your "big momma" and now after discarding the old maid, you cannot function without her. I don't want to spend the rest of my life playing the free fucking counselor ( I have to pay for my three and have always sought a counselor when I needed to get back on track-even seeing some now!) I have the bulk of my life. I babysat as a teenager and I babysat as a student and I babysat as a boss and employee and even had to when I was married. I have taken care of most family members and their children and all of my long term, live-in, partners and now I don't want to do that anymore. I QUIT! Consider this my 2 weeks behind 10 years notice! I want to have my golden time in whatever manner I choose (sex always being on the top of my list along with wine and chocolat and writing!) and I want to spend it with someone who will work WITH ME to build a happy ending and life together. I have a pretty good man right now and he is far away most of the time because of work. I like that as it gives me my space and time to be the shit I was born to be and it makes the together moments much more appealing, and the little shit most argue about doesn't come up because we want the most out of our time together. It's too bad it takes a tot of just eight hundred days to remind us of what's important... I think all people's with one so young should "mine" them out to the whiny women and men who want reaffirmation so they will see the "big picture" doesn't just have them in it!~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves!