Family

No one pisses you off more or loves you more than family ever would. You can hate them and always get a meal and love them while they steal, but in the end, when it counts the most, even the worst of families pull together in time of need...

Every person in a family unit plays a part and some play more than one. I was the smartass, the quiz genius who you can always count on for the right answer and for to do some menial task as I was the most dutiful. Not always so with the rest but I won't say none tried. I just don't feel most have done as much as I did to propel the unit forward. When someone needed cash I was there. When someone needed groceries I was there, a sitter, house watcher, tax monies, a ride...I was there. I have felt abandoned on more than one occasion. I have had two divorces and in the process of my third and out of work for the longest period of my life right now, two plus years as disabled, mentally and physically! lol There were times I really needed and didn't get as I was the one everyone was used to getting from. This has been hard on me and especially my kid as she wasn't overly spoiled but the means to which we live now are less than desirable. Time and money have run out and the need to move is now a "happening."

I will be making that infamous trip back to family breast. Many families in these days, over the course of the last few years, have gone back home or taken up residence with another family to ease the burden of debt and to find away to adapt to financial duress and surmounting bills. I wasn't going to have a happy holiday this year and for me that isn't a problem, but it was going to be the first year without for my kid too! How did I let this get this far! I didn't "let" anything. It happens, even to the best of us and it was our turn. I am not angry and am even in awe at the strength of character my "mini me" has shown in the face of our poverty. She, Lobo, is my hero. When school started I couldn't afford to buy her new clothes. She said she didn't want any. I know in her heart she did but she just didn't want mama to worry about her-she sucked it up and showed me a glimpse of what a fine young woman she is turning out to be! She has accepted there won't be a Christmas either and isn't even upset. I feel inadequate that my kid must "suck it up" but at the same time I am glad she has this experience of  "without" as it has matured her gently and taught her money isn't as important as people or pets. It showed me I am more important to her than her Gameboy or her Zune. That is the best gift I could ever receive! I haven't gotten a real legitimate gift in years and this makes up for that and the next ten!

So, off to Jason's we go. Me, mini me, Iggy, Roxy, Hiro, Boomer and Gordy! Can't leave the four legged children behind. We go to a meek two bedroom house with the back lanai turned into a third(my room). It has one bath for the three adults to share with the three two-legged kids and my five cats and their two dogs, two cats and one snake! It will be tight and cramped and when someone farts we won't know who did it but there will be food enough to go around and cable and internet and love and happiness despite the tight fit! My brother and I are two different people but we have always got along and never hated on each other even when one of us has to "lay  into" the other when we see something that needs fixing! I am looking forward to this new venture and if we can't have a holiday still, I know I can make it up to her the following month on her birthday. Why? Because we are family and that is what we do!~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves