making the best of my time "not" well spent! I have plans and make plans and even change plans, but the best plans yet are the defiant ones when I have my little temper tantrums and just say NO! I slept and slept and slept to my little heart's content, only getting up to utilize the little girl's room and then get something to drink and to go back to bed and sleep some more as I drift off to uncharted waters in my guilt-free mind.
I wish I had made every opportunity to make the best of my time. I really do but sometimes my heart isn't in it and, well, I wanna know what's my motive? Seriously, actors get their motive, criminals get theirs and even the damn religious door to door salesman have their motives too! I just need reminding, and being single means I get a "sick day" whenever I want when I cannot remember why the frig I gotta do this or that or whatever. Deadlines are changed and broken all the time and I know this isn't a corporation and if it was I got a few good ideas as to what we could sell but I'm afraid the one employee I have would "smoke" the profits! lmao
So tomorrow is Monday here and I have twice the work to go to and as much as I would like to take another "sick" day I know I cannot afford to. So packing it is and changing addresses and reserving a truck(as I had not done that for the weekend so the weekend was a bust-though the landlord>bless him<did give me an extra week to get gone)to move the big stuff and thousands of totes to which I have stored all my stuff. My and Lobo's personal effects will come with and quite a bit of my cooking paraphernalia too, but beyond that and the fishing equipment I will put in my brothers garage, it's just us and the cats. I still need to find a freezer for the food as his little fridge won't hold all he has and all I have, but no complaints-we'll manage. It's only gonna take me a whole month just to get comfortable and settled in and I still have to change the kid's school and all, but we'll be fine. Time is all I have, to spend as I see fit and I can either get in my own damn way or get the fuck outta it and get busy. My choice-my blame-my reward. I can do this. I need to get this all done and soon for the holiday is upon us and it blows as everything comes rolling along this time of year as we suffer from too many celebrations at once!(Thanksgiving-my birthday-Christmas-New Year's-Lobo's birthday-Valentine's day-state fair; all in the span of just under 3mos!)
today's unhappiness is with myself, for not getting my Lazy Sunday ass out of bed and getting something done. Don't worry my pets, I am not too hard on myself as I needed the sleep and my kid and cats needed to see me sleeping and peaceful for a change so all was not lost.~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves!
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