He wants, she wants, they want, I want, you want, we want, who wants? Every living thing has and needs "wants" for it is what drives us! I want to be famous! (not really but it is what drives the young waitresses when they leave daddy and mommy and move out west to the glittering streets of L.A.) Show me someone without a want and you will have seen the face of death for surely they have given up the will to live and "be"!
It has come to my attention that some of us just don't know what we want. I pity those souls as they are lying to themselves as well as you and I and everyone else. They know what they want and they are afraid to admit it for fear of social ramifications. They want to be a good person but have needs that they were taught are altogether inappropriate as the people who taught them felt that way. When I want something I go get it and will go to most lengths to do so. This is rare, though as I study human nature on a continual basis, I do find occasional occurrences of this. It hurts to be the center of someone's universe to be suddenly cast aside as unwanted as someone fairer and more suitable, so they seem to think, steps in. Clearly human beings haven't learned a thing for all the machinery and tools they can make and utilize searching for their wants. Time is the want of most as they seem to complain at never having enough and I find I have some to spare as I have done all I wanted and anything else is a bonus. I listen in the stores and restaurants to the indecisive feeble minds grasping to verbate what they don't truly feel. Many men in my life have wanted what their peers had or what someone on television has and put those wants before and above human life or friendship. Today I would like everyone to think about what "things" mean to them and see if they can figure out what is a want worth having. I lost my condominium (will be at the end of the month) and yet have no want for home as I have one with my family that I can go to. Sure I would like a place of my own but I'm not willing to give up custody of my kid or my pets and personal necessary possessions to that end. So I go to a new home, where I am wanted, and I bring hope for a good future and the unconditional love of my child and her four-legged siblings with me. I go where I am wanted and welcome. What more could I possibly want? Money-I'll get what I need properly when I need it, things- I have so many things I don't use I actually feel guilty and instead of the burden of a garage sale and the guilt of greed, I shall donate what I am not using to charity and take the loss as a lesson learned! Love-I have for myself and from others whom accept me as I am. A job- writing and being a mom and healing both mentally and physically is my job whether you or anyone else recognizes it as such or not, I just don't collect a check for the work I do and don't regret it either. Notoriety- yes, to some degree or why else would I take the time to poke fun at myself and draw attention to my assets? We all want all of these things on different levels, but let me square up with you right now...
Mobe wants a companion of similar age who is challenging and accepting of her and not so much like her that she gets bored. Mobe wants her kid to pursue furthering her education and to be thinking about it now when it counts so that she make make better choices than her mother did. Mobe wants her kitties to live as long as her, though she knows anatomically this isn't possible under ideal circumstances. Mobe wants a significant other who will look at her as the sun and the moon and do for her what she does for them, put them first. (after children of course) Mobe wants to reach a bigger audience, not necessarily in the hope that she becomes famous as she keeps to herself mostly, but to teach and even debate with them to spark intelligent thought. Mobe wants the world to have no sun (giggles) and be a balmy 50df or less year round! Mobe has come to accept that if she wants it it's a guarantee she ain't going to get it as she never does. What she can count on is getting what she needs and right now the fates that be tell her she doesn't have need of a man or an audience or total lack of sun or whatever. Mobe needs to believe in herself and just be. Live and let live. I hope everyone of you are blessed to get everything you need and are appreciative enough to get a few of your wants too! Even those that have wronged me of late and of history deserve their own happiness...~Mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves
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