An Addict's Confession

I will admit it, I'm an addict and it was never more so apparent than the last 60hrs or so when my internet was getting transferred to my new home. I am addicted to the web and my blog and yes, the social networks.

It wasn't like I wanted this crack of choice. I avoided the internet my whole life, excepting in the workplace and such, and have felt quite proud that I could live without it. It's as if they laced it with "MSG" to get you liking its flavor and then...WHAMMO...you are hooked. I tried...I even reasoned and said I will just use it to touch up my foreign language skills and to keep myself company in the evenings when I am oh so alone. I later upped the ante to wanting to play a game on one of the people sites. But Facebook took hold of me and traded my "weed-a-day" habit for a heavy dose of "meth-by-the-hour" and soon I was into it so deep I couldn't be saved. I want to know what everyone is doing and who is hating who and who loves me. I want to play my 5 games, yes from one to five, and write my blog for my instant gratification in the form of applause. It is euphoric to say the least and these last few days I have been digging at my skin and itching like a feening whore!

Now I know what the fuck "heebie jeebies" are and I assure you in kind-it's no fun! I went to sleep wondering if my crops withered and how smug a look will be on Jeremy's face because he got paid and I didn't get my goods, back alley blood deals suck for reliability, and what my friends-all 1300+ of them-have posted and done. I am not apologizing for missing you guys and am sincerely sorry for one fact-that I had to stay away because the damn internet providers and utility providers cannot get things into a smooth transition. So, "I'm back, from outer space, and I walked in to find you staring with that sad look upon your face"...but I swear I didn't change the locks or throw away your key and want you to know this wasn't just hurting you, but also killing me!~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves!