A Body of Lies

when the truth is found...to be lies, and all the joys within you die...In know it is time to let it be. Life is like that and there are good days and bad days and in my case, worse days. I can't seem to get anything right today and my body is going to be my biggest disdain.

I don't know what came over me last night but it is highly unusual for me to fall asleep before the sunrise. I did and not only did but I fell asleep too early and slept a full five hours and got up for the bathroom and then went back to sleep. That was around five in the morning. And sleep I did after that point well into daylight and another five hours. Now mind you this is not an unusual pattern of sleep for me. It's actually quite normal but it lasting for ten hours is what bothers me and beginning so early, at midnight, is also a trigger enough to upset. I even dreamt of how sore my spine was going to be and how badly my hips and legs were going to thrash, and upon opening my eyes found them to be equally as miserable in conscious-land as in dream state. There's nothing wrong with sleeping to catch up and everyone knows I get very little to begin with. It's just the time I am sleeping. It's not my appropriate resting period and this is what has gotten me boggled.

I don't "do" much in my day and beyond minimal household chores and such I do very little and yesterday was even less. I spent the day on the computer pondering my impending banishment from the social network I have become so fond of. I just cannot keep doing these awful mixed up sleep schedules as they aren't healthy for me. I sleep at dawn because it is the safest time for me to do so. Truth being what it is, we all know what happens to me if I spend the bulk of my awake time during daylight. My body betrayed me and I want to know why. It's as if it is disregarding the truth and trying to live in a lie. My gut is killing me and my bowels are killing me and my stomach area is swollen as well as my liver. Welcome to the theatre of doom! So why did this happen? I remember losing consciousness and wallowing down on my pillow and then nothing. My memory is devoid from that point until I woke at five minutes to five this morning and then I have total recall from that point on. I have my suspicions and a sinking feeling as to what ails me now and what needs to be done, body willing, but I won't be so foolish as to express them verbally just yet. I will see if this happens again and then decide what medical personnel needs to be brought in to straighten(fuck)me out(over). Now it is ten in the morning and I am awake and about and the pains are waning now my adrenaline is up and dopamine is kicking in in my awakened state. Hell hath no fury like a foreign body lying to the mind and even less fury than a nightsider who is forced to get up at the wrong damn time!~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves.