Pity Trip...Perhaps?

what to do when it is the end of your day and most everything you wanted to do is done? I don't know but I do have a laundry list of things I can catch up on or fulfill early to get my ass out of hot water on schedules and goals I set for myself. We shall see how adept I am at pulling this off, sha'nt we?

I need to finish things I start of even it kills me. I have set some pretty good examples in life but everyone else has benefited from them and my own daughter was too young to notice the value in it when I was so punctual and accommodating. Now she sees me struggle to pull off getting to the doctor's on time or getting home in time to make a meal at a reasonable hour, though this last one doesn't bother her because when riddled with guilt for being a poor mommy I tend to rely on fast food or take out to make up the slack of time. She likes when I forget dinner-what kid wouldn't?

So begrudgingly, I am trying my damnedest to get through the next few months, and by doing so complete a year of postings for this blog. I cannot tell you all what will become of this "blogger-verse" after that year is up but I set a goal and I need to achieve it if only for my own self esteem and to know I am moving forward in life if even I keep looking back over my shoulder. Bear with me as I forget to post and have to put up pure bullshit to amount to a posting, but late. I am only one creature in a pool filled with many and sometimes get down and feel my efforts are futile. I guess I am just a guilty pleasure for those of you who choose not to actually "like" or comment on my wall, posts or social feeds. It's okay really, as I know what hell I bring down on my own head for my viewpoints. If just one soul reads it and gets "it" then I will have accomplished what I wanted to begin with. love always...~mobe's love to her all and her all to her loves.